Two in one

L &  C, her pic in Oh 3-4-26

   Busy day ahead. Many tasks planned  We’ll see in 12 hours, what gets done.  God give me strength for the day I pray IJN

     “When I and you are once embraced by the eternal light, that is one. Two in one is a fiery spirit, standing over all things yet under God on the circle of eternity this is two; for it sees God but not immediately. Its knowing and being or its knowing and the object of knowledge will never be one. 

God is not seen except where he is seen spiritually, free of all images. Then one becomes two, two is one. Light and Spirit These two are one in the embrace of the eternal light.”

       Meister Eckhart, sermon 9,  nine from Lee van Laer,  inner Christianity, today

Deutsche heute

     

From my daughter S to cheer me

    Was will Ich sage?

A new day (posted 4-25–26)

 

Thorns. Ouch. 

     These reminded me of your Crown of Thorns. I bumped one or two ever so slightly.  That reminded me of the pain you suffered. For your sacrifice, thanks. IJN

Never forget

 

Pensive. 4-25-26. Presumpscot

    Whose we are. Is that the same as self remembering?

God help us

 

11-29-25, behind the Post Office

     It does no good to ask why.  Futility. How draining. Lord God, keep the man alive and well. In psalms words, smite his enemies and protect him. And his people who are our people.  IJN

Sprout

 

Along Dog Park Trail

Wholy halfly

      

Looking good

     Now if I only had something clever to say to Godot. But empty headed. Isn’t that a good thing?  Doesn’t feel good

      Abide with med Jesus. Help me help A. IJN

What to say?

 

High School 

              Except thanks for another dsy and American prosperity. 

Blue

 

Bayside Trail Portland Today

Grüß Gott

 

Shadows and reflections 

     Not sure I even said hello to you yesterday, and it was by custom your day of worship.  Not a good thing, and can’t be made up. It occurs to me that I have a subconscious aim to at least say hello to God daily. I’m annoyed with myself when I don’t. But I don’t necessarily reach up for truly deep contact. I’m telling myself this, not that it will cause me to do better. I wish. 

    Truly I enjoyed my am dream. I got involved in a movie production in the neighborhood. Row of fine houses or facades at east end of the street, my end slumber or ordinary. Lush green grass in Cosys yard, she came out and I told hero remembered when it was dirt clods. I admired the house, but wasn’t out to get one. Red and I were crossing the street.  A handsome man came over, we talked, and quickly became attached. But I’m married. It’s ok. Wants my help making a movie; I’m in it. Next morning he’s back. Many people in field, some cartwheeling, and he introduces me to his boss, Michael Moore.  A joins us; I sense he’s disturbed, maybe jealous. MM starts describing his film in high falutin’ language. Info and say I get it. A answers with an equally complex long analysis, and I laugh to myself, thinking that’s why I married him. For his ability to out talk anybody.

     Lord help us make the best of our day. And bless Trump’s efforts to help US. IJN

     Sis L is having an ablation in Oh. Guide her surgeons and her healing  IJN

     People say such are ineffectual selfish prayers. But I say it can’t hurt to ask.

Gear

 

Accupressure gifts from Susan Brown

     That was a fun PSC session and now I have 5 seeds taped in my left ear To exert mild pressure point

      We met a new dog, Georgy, and his couple in front of our house, and Red seemed very pleased. Then Baxter the boxer came by with A and, his owners. I moved on, but it was great to observe the two couples meet and interact through their dogs. 

    JP drove us to Beals for ice cream today. Very pleasant though chilly in the sunshine. Blueberry Cobbler as C recommended; very delicious.

       Thank you , Lord, for pleasant times.

Daffy

 

First I’ve noticed this year

    Lord have mercy. Hold me close to you throughout this day. Thank you for flowers and memories and friends.

Saco, cemetery, 4-17-17

Ditto

And again

The long views

With a friend, J, who invited me

Noon already

 

Worm tracks. Not fond of them either

And here I still sit. Phone calls this am: bro,  spectrum, terminix ( 3 ants crawling on me!  In my lounge chair!!  Guess I do not welcome all God’s creatures all the time). 

    Finally say hello, Lord. Let the thought of you lift my spirits. Move me, move with me. Bless my dear ones. IJN

More ignorance

 

OK. So you ignore me and I will ignore you

(Something wrong with blogger this morning. Or phone. Images not posting 
I take it back. It just self corrected.)

Now I’ve lost my whole reverie as I was finishing it!  I dislike the feeling of frustration and inauthenticity that comes with trying to reconstruct it. I also feel pressured to walk Red NOW!  So off I go, praying forgive me and walk with me, Jesus.

    And what a grand walk it was; see my other blog for a few dets.

   

      Earlier I remarked how far into the day I had gotten without saying hello, Jesus.  I may say to myself, like my boy I, I’m relaxing; or I’m taking my leisure with comic strips, Sudoku, Jumble, and family phone calls.  But that’s insincere.  I have said many times, “just a closer walk with Thee,” but I make very little effort daily to come close to God.  I may be waiting for Godot, to find out what that encounter really entails, but that’s insincere seems likely to be too late.  I pray for forgiveness and mercy.  IJN

God’s Creatures redux

 

Strolling in the pocket park

I like ‘em!

C said there was a discussion about them at city council, but  no idea what was said.  I hope government leaves well enough alone. 

Too much

12/14-16, one of my own drawings. 

Wish it could be better

but I wouldn’t throw it out

  After noon already, nothing accomplished. No aim. Just little tasks, like walk Red and do these blogs, which I foolishly consider my current art form.  Then I should take up these little tasks and do them wholeheartedly!

     I am grateful MF and DM will take up admin of the Sunday Webinar for Gwynne, and for her work all these years running it. 

    I spoke up for Jesus yesterday in one web, saying I had prayed that morning for him to be my essence, I couldn’t think of a better one, I had known him since I was a little child, that I may have left him many times, but he’s never left me. I went on to the topic of my disgruntlement with a favorite spiritual blogger who combines Christianity with Gurdjieff, so rare, with his political TDS and. antiwar diatribes, and that I had considered dropping him. But I realize that’s his personality talk versus essence talk and I don’t want to miss the latter. Thank you, Jesus

     The comments that prompted my own were quite funny to me, starting with, “There’s too much Jesus in Texas…”. LOL. Lord stay in Texas, but come visit ME, OH, and GA every day. IJN

      

Obnoxious

No comment

    I really do not want to read LvL’s anti-war Trump derangement syndrome publications. They negate and make me want to not read any of his publications, which seemed to have spiritual reality to me. I think people need to stop conflating their politics with their conscience.  Just because you think you have the moral high ground does not mean you do.  You have an opinion and so do I, and neither one of us knows if God has an opinion about the wars of earth and struggles between and within nations. I suspect the sufferings of Ors, like a single cell in a body, are too tiny for the Universe to notice.  So as they say, only history will tell. 

     And I pray, Lord, thank you for each breath, and grant us all a healthy day. Be in my awareness every moment. IJN

Good advice

Rock Row, yesterday

Check out the cut pattern 

in the rock face below

I like this one from D’s friend.

Sent: April 11, 2026 at 7:00 AM EDT Subject: Saturday, April 11, 2026 -- WRONG-DOINGS

     Words from the stars . . It is very important at this time to align our actions with our highest morals and ideals, and to avoid taking shortcuts. And enjoy your day and night.

 

     And the word for today is . . . WRONG-DOINGS. Universe asks that you not get hooked on the high of discord and trauma. Take that chip from your shoulder and realize that we all get our feelings hurt in this life. Fire yourself from the karma police; resign as the general manager of Universe. You are no longer responsible for sorting out the world's wrong-doings. Go from victim to victor. Let people be responsible for their actions and allow life itself to be responsible for the consequences. And rock on in this crazy world. Love and peace, Kate of the Universe

Close up—kind of

Surprises

Vila Olympic, Barcelona, 4/23/24, 

B James pic

    The stuff that stands between me and feeling my life!  Wake me up, Lord.  

     Today JP msgd me about an 04 lm red Matrix for 6.5K cash listed on Craig’s list. We went to the bank then to see it and my spirits were soaring at the coincidence and possibly of restored balance. However, h told the man “We’ll pass. It’s crusty”. I am so happy to have him to rely on. I would have been stuck with a car that couldn’t pass inspection in a couple of years; rust is the hardest thing to try to fix in ME climate damage. 

     This pm handsome Darius came to install the spectrum land line and stayed to install my nighthawk router which was just as challenging as I thought it would be. He was a very patient and interesting father of five with Philly & SC acres connections. 

     Point is, I never know what or who they were wearing, and it was certainly interesting today, including struggles with machinery that people helped me with. Thank you, Lord for helpers  And bless them

Complaining about pain

     

Best boy. Eases the complaints.

     Conversation with L about all the hurting units in our family right now.  Sensing for me is quite painful for sure. I feel like we’re on short time all of us.

       Happy with us all as we Approach the end of our lives And stay in our active memory for you and you for us. IJN

Ugly

   

Dangerous infrastructure,

 a 50 year old stumbling block

     All I want to say each morning is thank you, and I am truly grateful. But it feels insincere, mechanical; an example for E’s web exercise yesterday that I buffered out of awareness. Yes I now feel remorse of conscience; it feels shameful and even dangerous to be insincere with God. I guess I can take that as an outcome of mechanically and its process of snowballing. So my “gratitude” rolls into an anguished sense of guilt and a prayer for forgiveness. Lord have mercy. IJN

    And I am grateful that the threat to bomb Irans power plants stopped last night, if only temporarily.  I pray for the end of wars, again if only for a while, preferably a long era of world peace.  IJN

     

ME spring

  

4-7-2026

  Spring snow, very pretty today, and gives me an excuse for laziness. Ironic. A lot of ironies this a m. This one because I was just reading GIG on the disease of tomorrow, that is the ill consequences of putting things off, especially work for soul salvation. 

   “… almost all arrive at the point that on one sorrowful day for themselves, they arising them and begin to be manifest those forerunners of Called feebleness and infirmity ….. Toward the end of their planetary existence, most of the consequences of the properties of that same organ which had become crystallized in their common presence begin to atrophy of their own accord, and some of them even entirely disappear in consequence of which these beings began to see in sense reality a little better. In such cases, a strong desire appears in the common presences of such favorites of yours to work upon themselves to work as they say upon the salvation of their soul  But needless to say, nothing can result from such desires of theirs…. they have now only in factual earnings and the lawful- infirmities -of -old -age. GIG, Tales, p 363-4

   Thank you for all you bring

Again composed

 

Still life 3, with fruit, today

      Spoke to all three sisters yesterday. C has tech/financial foul up. D and L went to dinner together.  All sounded content. 

      DJ and family are driving home from Fla today. Then wife B will travel to Germany Wednesday. I only know of one senior who travels as much as she does. God bless her. And grant safe journeys to them all. 

     I watched tv a lot on Easter: Jesus’ life, Fox News lost airman coverage, original Wizard of Oz. Odd we did not finish reading Easter story in John, as I thought we would. We did read it in Matthew midweek, but yesterday would have seemed more appropriate, celebratory.  All an itch, a regret for something lost in the past, a religious attention or discipline that I feel too lazy to pursue these days. I should say God forgive and help me, but I doubt my sincerity and willingness to change.

    All of us have moved away from our early, religious ties and none of our descendants have even dipped their toes into the living waters. Except I note Niece J’s flirtation with Catholicism a few years back, with her insistence of her whole family’s  participation. Too bad it ended; maybe she stumbled on the Fifth commandment with her vicious treatment of her mother. I sound judgmental, and I’m spreading family gossip, but the relationship generates my pity, angst, and compassion. 

    Might be good to revisit Jesus’ Parable of the Sower found in Matthew 13:1–23, Mark 4:1–20, Luke 8:4–15 and the extra-canonical Gospel of Thomas.

    Enough said, except

   Lord help us all find our way back to you, the Living Water, the source of pity and compassion.  IJN

Easter

 

He is risen. He is risen indeed

.  

Common man

 

N

The neighborhood’s version of lakefront

   Lord, we need the.rain, but do admit we prefer mild sunshine.

   Which appeared later in the day, although the temperature was very cold by evening. Thank you for what we get— nothing drastic. 

    And this is very silly. Pondering, writing, addressing God about weather. So shallow!  Particularly between Good Friday and Easter, when Christ was preparing to reappear alive. Forgive my shallowness IJN

https://youtu.be/sTSruhryIEA?si=KrTgLebkaAWED_Xi

In he Dark Night, Orthodox Chant..magnificent

   

Good Friday

4-9-2023, WUCC

     Lee said Christ cannot will not leave this world because of his sacrifices, despite peoples’ attempts to eliminate him still. Thank you Lord for your presence. 

Crucifixion.  Roger van der Weyden. MFA, Philly

Getting ahead of myself

Neighbors Easter Decoration

     “Lift up your heart to God with a gentle movement of love, and intend God himself, not any of his gifts. And take care to turn away from thinking about anything except him, so that nothing works in your mind or in your will except God alone.”                                 Lvl, m5 S’s, quoting third chapter of The Cloud of Unknowing.

Release tension

4-1-2017 New Mexico 

Every day I begin here with this 
as the only life there has ever been, 
completely new, starting here and now. 

For this moment of life is the only life I will ever have. 
Everything else takes place in the imagination. 
And this body is the only body I will ever have. 

Everything takes place in the imagination 
except the act of being here now. 
And I suddenly see, 
as I understand this for a moment 
that here and now 
is where the imagination has a wish to be active. 

I form the image of myself in every instant. 
Awareness as a mirror for what is. 
I see in this way that my sensation of being is a mirror for what is. 

     Lee van Laer, Midwife, today Morning Five Substack

S up at 5:45 for early trip to Boston. Definite tension and grump at departure time. She looked beautiful as ever, in a mohair knit dress she created, gold ochre bodice, purple body.  

   Grant her a safe journey an pleasant visit, Lord. IJN

A visit from my daughter

 

What a blessing.

A nap on my lap. How many decades since that happened?  Very touching. 

Thank you, Jesus 

What today? low energy

 

Call it first spring day in the neighborhood 64°

     Webinar on being, ego.  Mention of the Jesuit psychologist who realized in his 80s that he fantasized most of his career. That seemed so real to me in regard to the many business people we have been dealing with this past month.  Unreal necessary interactions and phone calls.

     Worst is body aches and pains. Lord heal ZiJN

Sunday in the park

 

With Red

     God and webinars today. Lord be we us through this Holy Week. Let us think of you daily, Lord Jesus. 

Grant us thy good will

 

Portsmouth NH 8-7-2014

        Life is short, death is long. Each day plays out like a fishing line cast out and reeled back through the same waters, with only occasional snags to mar repetition. Lord have mercy. IJN

Thank You for Healing

  

And for helpers

All better almost

Staples out, no cast, sling optional 

Thank you, Lord, for another good day.

Long lasting

 

Y’s flowers aren’t giving up the ghost. 

Neither should we, tired as we are. High temp

57° today,  but it felt so chill and gray. I as such a grump this morning, packing pills.  The nurse was here to hear me, I’m ashamed to say.  PT also visited, arriveing as I departed for hair appointment with dear M. Her previous client left ultrasound delicious homemade treats— lemon pound cake, pb chip chocolate cookies, Tollhouse chocolate chip cookies—I want to remember them, and her (Aging silver blonde long pageboy with a red going for fuchsia side streak). M sent home a goodie bag for A and me. Little dog and I stopped at Chic Filet to bring home very agreeable lipped.  Then comfy nap time with Red.

Thank you, Lord for this life, IJN.

Busy day

Contrast: porch tracks

 Thank you, Lord, for the energy needed to complete all the new tasks I have.  Steward.  Thank you for sunshine and mild temperatures which seem to raise energy and decrease pain. IJN

Color

 

Self portrait in color?

     Be cheerful and praise the Lord. See the beauty of contrast, light and reflection. IJN

God help me

Vanitas

     I repeat.

     I feel like I have been rudely thrust into a world that is far too complicated. 

     I may exaggerate, if I say life has always been a struggle, not so joyful, not beautiful as I wish to declare it.  Is it a gift or a curse you give us at conception, Lord?  Should I even ask?

      I review in mind the personal calamities and breakdowns that mark my aging personally, especially recently.  I am also touched by news reports of murderous events, this time the hanging death of a teenage Iranian wrestler by his theocratic regime.  I feel my heart wring physically. I go numb. 

     Lord why?  You are sad, too, so can or will you do nought to help suffering humanity?  I want to plead to you,  “Rescue us!” But I don’t believe you will. Or that we can rescue ourselves, despite all the helpers and forces for good that I find all around me. I’m in the wilderness.  Death starts to look like a door out, if a cowardly one that leads me to abandons those I help. 

 

    Lord, if this is not despair I feel, it’s damn close to it. So again I can’t help crying, Omnipotent,  save me, Jesus help us, God have mercy,

An answer, a comfort, comes.  Lee van Lear, Daily Five, Substack today:

“ And I see that I am brought here in goodness, 

in life, and in being 
to own what takes place 
to earn my place in it 
and to assume the responsibility of being a living creature 
here in this solar system 

I can only recognize my responsibilities and duties 
by turning to the authority of every cell in my body 
and listening to their own vibration. 

For they have no doubt as to their purpose 
and yet I must bring more than this alone.

For no creature can be found by God unless it has doubt in it. 
And no man can find God 
without the doubt of everything that drives him forward through life. 

No woman can find God 
without the doubt that drives her forward through everyday life.
 
So we come together here in the unknown. 
All of us Uncertain. 
Questioning. 

Searching for a deeper and more spiritual connection 
to this energy that flows throughout the body— 

willing, perhaps, to accept the conditions of life itself. 

A place of the unknown, 
moving forward into the unknown
with only light and love to illuminate it in the end. ”

Spring has sprung

 

Thank you for our daily bread

And flowers

And sleepy little dogs

And healing husbands who

enjoy March Madness 

IJN