Water in a desert

 

Conflation?

That’s what Baruch’s compassionate email delivered to me. Thank you, Lord, for such a friend, who seems made in your image to me. 

  And thank you for my dear brother. He’s the easiest one in the family to talk to. Bless him. IJN

Harvest

 

Delicious stolen apples from my neighbors

 “ And if your love really is so pure, so detached, and so bare in itself, that you love naught but goodness and God, then it is a certain truth that all the virtuous deeds performed by all men are yours, as perfectly as if you had performed them yourself, and even purer and better.” M. Eckhart Ser 12 fr Lee Substack Inner Christianity today

   This strikes me as the flipside of E’s Attribution to Buddhism Friday that anything happening to any person in the world can happen to you. That seems more secular somehow, whereas the above seems more sacred and desirable.

Lee’s commentary is encouraging:

“ And there is nothing greater in this life than God’s grace, God’s love, and God’s goodness, which can indeed flow into your being. 

We need but open our hearts for this truth to arrive in us. And oh, that is so strangely difficult. Yet it should not be. 

For love and goodness are already here within all things throughout creation. 

We just fail to notice them. 

And it is because we do not have the sensation of God in our being. 

But we can find it if we search.”

         I admit that I thought I am no longer a seeker, I have already found. It seems I’m wrong. There are other steps to climb  Help me, Jesus, to continue the search  

Lord, I’m afraid

 

51 today

We want to protect her she wants to protect us. Lord help us.  We just lump is huge. Nosy very til Christmas!!!  

What if this is the last time we meet in any apparent health?  I want to panic. Abide with us. 

Whither. Wither?

 

Changing

Just as my eye cannot speak and my tongue cannot recognize colors, so love cannot incline to anything but goodness and God. M. Eckhart set 22. On Lee Substac

Is there a time when I am not in the middle of confusion and doubt?

Sleep all day

 

What a strong wind looks like

Lord wake me up. I can’t seem to rouse myself Thank you for a smoother day for S. Odd how I’ve been away from Anyone. How do you talk to my neighbors as I am thankful for them. And for another beautiful day. And for my sweet little dog. Help me to be fair to him. And to A And to museum. 

Hard day

 

Old neighborhood 

Seems like it all went wrong. The onc team dropped the ball on the very first procedure, PET scan, so it’s postponed til tomorrow, delaying any treatment startup that much longer. And she went 24 hours between meals. Hangry. I just angry. 

Got refund on Wild Harvest pm after filing dispute am  

Found lost clicker after finding the lost one. Thanks St Anthony.  But egg on my face. 

So Lord is any of this really important?

Abide  with me, with us. IJN

Why ask why? I don’t

  

Fireweed on dog park trail 

I pray for a swift recovery for S and good  news from her doctor each time

I am grateful for this beautiful early autumn water

IJN

12-14-2016

From Lee Daily Five Substack 9-6-26 A New Attitude:

“ I cling to what I am with great determination

which in the end is strange, 

because if I ever get a real sense of what I am, 

immediately I see that I am almost nothing, 

and that there is nothing here to cling to. 

The body and the mind and the emotions seize on life 

as if it were prey and attempt to devour it. 

And my whole attitude is, in this way, mistaken. 

I need to realign myself with a different attitude 

if I wish to live 

and have an understanding of life 

in a right way. 

And in order to do that, 

it is very important for me to stop clinging to life, 

to relax my grip on it, 

to let it go, 

to acknowledge that it does not belong to me

and to set it free 

so that it can find its own way, 

rather than having me as a tyrant and a dictator. 

Set free in this strange and usually unknown land, 

coming into its own natural condition,

Life always begins by greeting the body in its sensation 

with a kind of love. 

For life does not see the body as an enemy, 

but as a friend. 

And as I sit here receiving life, 

receiving life in a new form of stillness, 

I see the way in which the breath 

brings me into relationship with the energies of the planet. 

I see the way that gravity gathers them here. 

I see the way in which these energies have a wish to align 

with the influence of the Sun and its light. 

And I slowly begin to sense a state 

in which every cell and molecule 

acknowledges the light that is already in it. 

Already ready, able, and willing to align with the sun. 

And as I breathe the atmosphere of the planet, 

I begin to receive the gentle and intelligent emanations of the Sun, 

which come deep into the body here 

as a truth and as a blessing beyond measure. 

And even my negativity is touched by this 

in such a way 

that it admits its attitude is incorrect. 

And I see why the Lord's Prayer asks me to forgive, 

just as I request forgiveness. 

I begin to see more organically 

that in every part of me a new attitude is needed. 

And I bring the great prayer here to say….”