Busy day

Contrast: porch tracks

 Thank you, Lord, for the energy needed to complete all the new tasks I have.  Steward.  Thank you for sunshine and mild temperatures which seem to raise energy and decrease pain. IJN

Color

 

Self portrait in color?

     Be cheerful and praise the Lord. See the beauty of contrast, light and reflection. IJN

God help me

Vanitas

     I repeat.

     I feel like I have been rudely thrust into a world that is far too complicated. 

     I may exaggerate, if I say life has always been a struggle, not so joyful, not beautiful as I wish to declare it.  Is it a gift or a curse you give us at conception, Lord?  Should I even ask?

      I review in mind the personal calamities and breakdowns that mark my aging personally, especially recently.  I am also touched by news reports of murderous events, this time the hanging death of a teenage Iranian wrestler by his theocratic regime.  I feel my heart wring physically. I go numb. 

     Lord why?  You are sad, too, so can or will you do nought to help suffering humanity?  I want to plead to you,  “Rescue us!” But I don’t believe you will. Or that we can rescue ourselves, despite all the helpers and forces for good that I find all around me. I’m in the wilderness.  Death starts to look like a door out, if a cowardly one that leads me to abandons those I help. 

 

    Lord, if this is not despair I feel, it’s damn close to it. So again I can’t help crying, Omnipotent,  save me, Jesus help us, God have mercy,

An answer, a comfort, comes.  Lee van Lear, Daily Five, Substack today:

“ And I see that I am brought here in goodness, 

in life, and in being 
to own what takes place 
to earn my place in it 
and to assume the responsibility of being a living creature 
here in this solar system 

I can only recognize my responsibilities and duties 
by turning to the authority of every cell in my body 
and listening to their own vibration. 

For they have no doubt as to their purpose 
and yet I must bring more than this alone.

For no creature can be found by God unless it has doubt in it. 
And no man can find God 
without the doubt of everything that drives him forward through life. 

No woman can find God 
without the doubt that drives her forward through everyday life.
 
So we come together here in the unknown. 
All of us Uncertain. 
Questioning. 

Searching for a deeper and more spiritual connection 
to this energy that flows throughout the body— 

willing, perhaps, to accept the conditions of life itself. 

A place of the unknown, 
moving forward into the unknown
with only light and love to illuminate it in the end. ”

Spring has sprung

 

Thank you for our daily bread

And flowers

And sleepy little dogs

And healing husbands who

enjoy March Madness 

IJN

What to pray

 

July, 2025, neighbor’s fragrant lilies

     They spin not, neither do they toil..,, yet God provides.  Yield to that authority, says Lee rightly  IJN

This is the soil in which Lord have mercy grows its roots 

this is the place where the blood of Christ is spilled 
to bring being to the new man and the new woman 

This is the place of mystery and becoming. 
And I bring the great prayer to this place 
to offer it once again. 

Lord, 
I call to thee from the depths of mine iniquity. 
I have not delivered myself sufficiently unto thee. 
I know not how. 

           Lee van Lear, today, inner Christianity, Grace Knows no Limits, substack

So weary

S’s midnight high wind calamity Tuesday

     Probably lack of caffeine today. Lack of keeping in touch with you Lord. Odd how when life gets tough I shut down from you. It doesn’t help. I need your comfort.  Help me, Lord

Recovering

 

At home

Happier, looks like

Lord help us sleep peacefully through the me night and heal.  Watch over and heal KA. Bless our dear ones. IJN