Whither. Wither?

 

Changing

Just as my eye cannot speak and my tongue cannot recognize colors, so love cannot incline to anything but goodness and God. M. Eckhart set 22. On Lee Substac

Is there a time when I am not in the middle of confusion and doubt?

Sleep all day

 

What a strong wind looks like

Lord wake me up. I can’t seem to rouse myself Thank you for a smoother day for S. Odd how I’ve been away from Anyone. How do you talk to my neighbors as I am thankful for them. And for another beautiful day. And for my sweet little dog. Help me to be fair to him. And to A And to museum. 

Hard day

 

Old neighborhood 

Seems like it all went wrong. The onc team dropped the ball on the very first procedure, PET scan, so it’s postponed til tomorrow, delaying any treatment startup that much longer. And she went 24 hours between meals. Hangry. I just angry. 

Got refund on Wild Harvest pm after filing dispute am  

Found lost clicker after finding the lost one. Thanks St Anthony.  But egg on my face. 

So Lord is any of this really important?

Abide  with me, with us. IJN

Why ask why? I don’t

  

Fireweed on dog park trail 

I pray for a swift recovery for S and good  news from her doctor each time

I am grateful for this beautiful early autumn water

IJN

12-14-2016

From Lee Daily Five Substack 9-6-26 A New Attitude:

“ I cling to what I am with great determination

which in the end is strange, 

because if I ever get a real sense of what I am, 

immediately I see that I am almost nothing, 

and that there is nothing here to cling to. 

The body and the mind and the emotions seize on life 

as if it were prey and attempt to devour it. 

And my whole attitude is, in this way, mistaken. 

I need to realign myself with a different attitude 

if I wish to live 

and have an understanding of life 

in a right way. 

And in order to do that, 

it is very important for me to stop clinging to life, 

to relax my grip on it, 

to let it go, 

to acknowledge that it does not belong to me

and to set it free 

so that it can find its own way, 

rather than having me as a tyrant and a dictator. 

Set free in this strange and usually unknown land, 

coming into its own natural condition,

Life always begins by greeting the body in its sensation 

with a kind of love. 

For life does not see the body as an enemy, 

but as a friend. 

And as I sit here receiving life, 

receiving life in a new form of stillness, 

I see the way in which the breath 

brings me into relationship with the energies of the planet. 

I see the way that gravity gathers them here. 

I see the way in which these energies have a wish to align 

with the influence of the Sun and its light. 

And I slowly begin to sense a state 

in which every cell and molecule 

acknowledges the light that is already in it. 

Already ready, able, and willing to align with the sun. 

And as I breathe the atmosphere of the planet, 

I begin to receive the gentle and intelligent emanations of the Sun, 

which come deep into the body here 

as a truth and as a blessing beyond measure. 

And even my negativity is touched by this 

in such a way 

that it admits its attitude is incorrect. 

And I see why the Lord's Prayer asks me to forgive, 

just as I request forgiveness. 

I begin to see more organically 

that in every part of me a new attitude is needed. 

And I bring the great prayer here to say….”

Almost missed today’s post

Two trail walks today

Two trail walks, second an unsuccessful search but saw for and fawn. 

Heartening phone talk with S. Thank you for your blessings, and ask that you pour your tender mercies especially on her in these challenging months.

Help this country to stay true to its roots in the upcoming election. IJN

Flow into Autumn

 

Still don’t know what it is, but I like it. 

Apparently, someone else does too,

since it’s now on a “pedestal”

Beautiful blue sky today with cool temperatures, a light breeze, and the sun’s shadows at that certain angle which announces the end of summer. 

Keep us strong. Keep us in your hands. IJN amen.

From Lee today, Inner Christianity Substack;

(From Meister Eckhart, sermon 11,finish)

See, God loves us so. God importunes us so. And God cannot wait till the soul has turned away and stripped off all creatures. It is a certain and necessary truth that God must seek us. as though His Godhead were at stake, which it is. And God can do no more without us than we without Him. For even if we were able to turn from God, God could still not turn from us.

I declare that I will not pray to God to give to me, nor praise him for what He has given me but I will pray to Him to make me worthy to receive and I will praise him because He is of such a nature and essence that He must give. He who would deprive God of this would deprive him of his own being of his very life that we may thus in truth become the Son. May that truth help us of which I have spoken. 

[reading ends]

So we are vessels into which the world flows. 

But it is not the world so much as God’s world, which is the wholeness of it in every particular detail throughout the cosmos. Everything flowing into the world from God, not out of desire, but necessity, God must give. 

There is something compelling about the relationship between this cosmos of creation and God’s being. Something that we don’t understand. And yet, even as we don’t understand it, we are living it. We are in the midst of what Emmanuel Swedenborg called the inflow. That place where life and goodness and even God himself flow into being without hesitation and without ever ceasing. 

And we here, as creatures of creation, are instruments made to receive that glory as it flows into being, here within every cell and every molecule of the body.

And to see that we are the beneficiaries of a goodness beyond measure, the light of the soul flowing into us perpetually and without sensation in an eternal and endless generosity. 

And for this we should offer thanks and praise. Amen. 

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Friends. Today

There is nothing to do. 
I just need to be here. 

But this is already goodness itself, 
regardless of my tiny nature or my helplessness. 
I am still invited to be. 

Like every cricket that sings 
and every bird that calls, 
I am invited to be. 

And I need not worry or think, 
for it will add nothing to this glory. 

The only thing that this glory calls for is for me, 
to bring my being to it, 
held gently in my hands, 
and offer to participate. 

Lee van Laer, morning five Substack today, add nothing to this glory